Now that all the dirty secrets of the BALCO trial have been leaked and suspicions confirmed, those of us who bleed orange & black are in the midst of some of the darkest days to befall the Giants since Scott Spezio went deep. We've had a charmed life in our snug little baseball world -- records broken, playoff games played, World Series games held -- and Barry has been responsible for a large portion of it. There is no way you could run a highlight reel of everything that's gone on in that magical place we call the Stadium at 24 Willie Mays Plaza without giving lots of time to the feats of Barry. A Bonds' at-bat has been the best show in sports for years now and we've had front row seats for all of it. But now what?

When Bonds comes to bat will we stand and hold our breath? Will we cheer whenever he plunks one into the Cove? Will the montage of homer highlights the Giants play whenever he hits one have the same thrill? Will they even show it? When the next home-run milestone is inevitably passed, will it mean the same? We've been awed by Barry over the years. Will we be awed anymore?

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